Nicky Danny Wrate

MY NEW YEAR WISH TO YOU

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May peace fill all the empty spaces around you

and within, may contentment answer all your wishes.

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May comfort be yours, warm and soft like a sigh.

And may the coming year

show you that every day is a first day,

a new year.

Wishing you a gentle Christmas filled with beautiful memories

of Nicky.

YOU DON'T KNOW ME, BUT I ALSO HAVE A MEMORIAL FOR OUR SON ON LAST-MEMORIES, AND I CAME ACROSS YOURS. I JUST WANT YOU TO KNOW HOW VERY SORRY I AM FOR YOUR LOSS, AND I KNOW YOUR PAIN SO VERY WELL. I CRY FOR OUR SON, EVERY DAY! I TOO HAVE PEOPLE WHO KEEP TELLING ME TO MOVE ON, OF COURSE, THEY HAVE NEVER LOST A CHILD ! YOU AND YOUR FAMILY OUR IN MY PRAYERS AS WE TRAVEL THIS HARD JOURNEY. ONE DAY TO BE UNITED WITH OUR BOYS AGAIN. GOD BLESS YOU!!

Another year has passed by .

It has been 3, years since we last saw your face, held your hand , or touched your hair. or had a hug.

No more hugs kisses or sounds of your voice . The phone ringing / mobile with your voice on the other end.

Cups of Tea and chocolate you standing by the fire roasting your legs .

No more advice wind ups concerns etc.. all the chats about your future gone.........

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I have your memory box with your belongings , trainers mobile etc.. and your medical notes, your last 3 days spent in hospital on a life support machine to read.

But not our son..

I still see you Nicky lying in your hospital bed so still

Gently sleeping. 

With just the sound of the ventilater making a gentle puffing Noise,

Bleeps from all that machinary keeping you going.

you never made a movement it was like you were gone already .

From that Sunny Saturday morning when you went off with

Ryan never to return to your family ever again.

From the week you were born all those years ago, i always worried about you.

We had so many worrying times with you over the years.

like when you got run over..

when you got beaten up by 2 boys standing up for your sisters when they stole their bikes.

You were so brave and suffered major facial surgery.

I always remeber saying if they are bigger than you run like the devil You never did.

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We have so many memories of you over your 29 years

Some happy some sad and a lot that makes us proud.

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Finaly the Angels  got you and took you home with them 

Your father and i and all the family have never really understood .

I can never say well ,you are better of etc.. because you are not....

You have missed out on so many things , LIKE YOUR CHILDREN .

That upsets us the most you would be proud of them Nicky.

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I WOULD not visit the grave today as i never celebrate your death how can i.

For as long as i live i hate whoever took you , i can never understand why my son.................

You truly, never deserved an AVM which you were born with and you never knew you had nor did we.

You were never given a chance and you truly were a caring boy .

You always thought of others .

Nicky please forgive us for not been able to save you

This one we could never help with.

I always remember asking the Doctor well you will operate .

And he said we can not, at this stage.

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Finaly arranging a funreal, i will always thank Auntie Maxine

she helped so much, i could not even remember a hym let alone a euoligy. with her support in so many ways.

Can you imagine choosing your childs coffin.

Even now it seems so sureal.

Seeing your name on the coffin plate was just unbearble.

Now 3 years on we still have bad days but we try...

one day at a time is all we manage .

Your dad and i have changed .

I hate it when others expect people to get over a death...

Please tell me how do you do that ???

Grief has no time, memorys live on , time appears to stand still.

Please mention the deceased name.

So please be patient with others who have lost someone so close to them.

you see to you it means nothing, but to us it is our heart. 

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Nicky how you are loved and missed, it is so unbearable

without you here .

we do not have the words to  express how we feel.

We will never get over your death nor will you beforgotton.

Your name will always be spoken.

Sleep gently our son . love you, Mum & Dad xx

Shared times, Shared memories, Shared joys ~~ these special things keep your precious Nicky close.

Wishing you strength for today and comfort in the days ahead knowing how much  your dear Nicky ment to so many.

Thinking of you Nicky and your loved ones and I pray that they find some comfort knowing that others do care ~ Edwina

Nicky Danny Wrate.

Died on the 6th September 2005 at 1.am , He was surrounded at his bed side

 by his Mother and Father,  Nicky's everloving sister's and his most precious wife.

Along with his Grandparents Aunt and uncle's.

Also present were his family from his wife side.

Nothing will ever be the same without our most special son.

Nicky's death was sudden and not expected, to be told that your son was born with a condition that was so rare

and that would get him at any time came as such a shock to us all.

Nicky was so fit it did not seem at all real.

Nicky you are the best you were loved and we so wish we could have you back.

All i ask is that God keeps you safe untill we arrive and then we will never ever leave you again.

sleep tight precious son of our's.